Our Angel Austin

This post logically would be next in line, yet I find myself having a hard time getting it started. I guess it's just hard to apply it to a blog that was intended to be about Logan, but Austin is also a huge reason behind our ties to CF.

Our son Austin was still born because of CF complications. He had a severe intestinal blockage. It was so extreme, his intestines pushed past his diaphragm. This cause his little heart to be under so much pressure it just couldn't beat anymore.

After many weeks of bed rest and a pretty miserable pregnancy I noticed I hadn't felt much movement. I went into the doctor. It was confirmed by ultrasound on the 6th of February that there was no heart beat. From the doctors office, I my husband was called at work and told to come to the office. We went directly to the hospital from there.

Austin came into this world at 34 weeks gestation on February 7th, 2001. He weighed 5lbs 6oz. He had short, dark, curly hair. He was buried on Feb 12th, 2001.

The following year, we took part in our local Great Strides walk in Modesto, Ca. While we were at the walk, I had an amazing opportunity to meet a mother of a little girl who had CF. She'd been diagnosed on ultrasound, when her OB noticed something all too familiar... Something he'd seen on my ultrasound. She was sent over for an emergency C-section, and at 2 days old her daughter had the life saving surgery my son didn't get the chance to have.

Some people don't understand my logic, but this actually brought me so much peace, and closure. I don't like to play the "what if" game about things of the past. I also believe everything happens for a reason. Because of Austin, this baby was saved. That was his purpose in the incredibly short amount of time he was ours.

I wish no mother would have to experience the loss I did. At least I know of one who didn't have to. I am so very grateful to our Heavenly Father, that he allowed me to witness first hand His plan. Being able to meet her surely wasn't coincidence or chance.